Iris

June 28, 2025 8:34 AM Title: Regrets I long for words unspoken— for missed chances, rascal years, and everything lost to the quiet of forgetting; People shaped my tears. May everyone find, What they’ve always wanted, Not what they deserve. Because through the years, I’ve drifted far from heaven— Grown independent of God, Entwined instead with fear. You may not understand me. People rarely do. But know this; I will always wish you the best, Even as the tides rush into the oceans, And ink stains the last of my truth.

March 11, 2023 1 2:38AM Title: Bannister Embrace I dread the fear of longing, When my eyes would search, For the sun in the night sky, Where all the answers would be, In the lifetime of “why’s” I’d find. My head is clouded in purple hues, Filled with a bannister embrace, The lifeline I once created, Was caught in an eyeless gaze; Nothing is once as was it was made. “Be kind,” I say to myself at night, Cleansing the mistakes that stay, Somewhere in the past or in between, Riding in the fire of our candle days; Absent in the empty schemes, my daze. Hiding my words in metaphors, In a language that no one understands, Literal is a meaningless concept, Lost is a form of dance; Where I lost my only chance I love in the face of evil, I hurt in the place of kind, I stand as an anarchic society, “My love, my love” I call out , But my love, nobody understands.

June 6, 2024 11:16AM Title: July Meet me in July, By the summers and springs, Where the tide rises, And the cold water sings. Touch my hands in the days of December, And let go by noon, Singing sad songs in November, Dancing on my tears by the end of June.

May 6, 2024 3:40AM Title: Illness I wake from my open slumber, With pillows thrown across the room, A reminder of my sheltered demons, All the pills I never took. The permanent solution, For my temporary problems, Immaturity is a never-ending weakness. No therapist can ever cure.

October 31, 2023 4:40PM Absent God  —  Part 2 I lay awake at night, With all the sad songs in the world. Trying to decipher the memories, The answers to why things occurred. Is it me that needed fixing? With my audacity to demand good, For my inner child that’s hurting, Who was abandoned by the world My head seeks justice, But my heart’s already tired, Of singing sad songs pointing to heaven, Asking help from a God — Who’s always never there

February 22, 2023 7:12PM Title: Absent God Night coffee on my tongue, Sunset horizons taking place. Yellow, red, blue, and purple, An absent god staring at my face. 15 billion stars in my eyes, Yet I live only in the lands of the earth, With feet never daring to touch the sky, Head in the clouds formed as blue birds Melatonin daydreams, Scattered in my waking head, Holding down the distance in between, When will this ever end? But I dance with the lights of heaven, Where I have travelled, With the oranges I found at dawn, My mouth speaks freedom, —Never meeting the gaze of the sun.

February 8, 2023 9:08PM Title: Tsunamis in the Spring When you can’t find me, In the hills or in the house by the sea, I may be diving in the current tides, Waiting for tsunamis in the spring. If you see me waiting by the lake, No matter what time, especially at late, It’s my soul, waiting for its mate, To come back after leaving my days. As you pass by the window, Where I once sat writing about love, Leave some bouquets of wilted flowers, Beings that I’m one with at drought.

November 5, 2022 3:10AM Title: Law of Physics I see a clock, And hold hands with its numbers. My fingers touching time, Its arrows piercing on my shoulders. Fighting a war with the laws of physics, As I dance myself amongst the stars, Floating beneath the surface, Letting go against the hours. I pour my heart out, “My last days” entitled, Making paper planes out of goodbyes, Dedicated to all of my lovers.

March 17, 2024 5:25PM Title: Empath —  Part 2 I dwell and conquer, All the deepest trenches, One can ever know. I seek and seek, All the knowledge, One can ever soar All the sacrifices I made, All the happiness — now lost, Spent thinking, fighting, All the wilted leaves, That can ever grow Yet I sit in an empty place, With all the things I now know, With no one who can ever come to, Where now — this is all I know

January 15, 2024 5:55AM Title: Soul Once I reach the quiet end, And everything has gone cold, My soul will make its amends, For every truth my mouth has told. I’ll sit with all my wishes, The promises I let fall through— For skies I ever touched, And hearts I never meant to bruise. And as I drift toward the skylight, Feet above the sleeping clouds, I float through starless midnights, In days that never let stars out. No one will miss me— No one will ache. The world may breathe easier Without my weight. But all the sunrises I once dimmed, All the lights I washed in gray, Will rise again to greet the heavens— And turn the night back into day.

September 20, 2023 12:06AM Title: Empath — Part 1 You’ve reached the end of this chapter, Your coffee is long gone cold. Your heart ran out of language, And your grief is carved in stone. Yet still, you stand, In the hush of an empty breeze, Searching for sunlight through trees, Or a sign of what could've been. You— a haze of sorrow in motion, Eyes lifted toward the rain, A soul who carries warmth In a world that shrinks from pain. Is this my fate—my reckoning? To be one with every bruise? To hold the ache of others, While my own slips out of view? To offer answers wrapped in silence, To orbit hearts that never stay— An empath left unraveling, In a world that looks away?

July 14, 2023 2:41PM Title: Vapor I open my eyes, And feel the rain in my clouded room. Where the fog fixes with my blurry gaze. I'm back to my childhood wounds.

October 13, 2022 11:33PM Title: The Awakening Phase In an hourglass-sand world, Where I breathe green-flavored air There lay a sky that told me to look down To stones that insist my feet walk bare Words narrate my steps in scripts Like an actress in a silent play With all the things I once knew Now, all the things I start to hate And as I look past The reflection in the seas I'd catch a glimpse of the heavens The skies told me not to see

 August 26, 2022 10:42AM Title: Local Stargirl Empty under the sheets, Where time doesn’t exist Lana Del Rey playing like an anthem, Lang Leav, on my lips. Your eyes follow me, My body, on the hands of your dignity, My whole being, you judge my soul, Your heart, absent of apathy. You say I’m like art, That your visions are in painting, Like a French girl you draw me, In your eyes, that’s how you know me. I’m a fantasy, A character you knew from movies, Playing in front of you, And only you can watch me.

August 9, 2022 12:21AM Title: Quicksand Sing a soft song, In a tower on a deserted hill, Where silence is the language, And voices are a foreign thrill. Take a deep breath, In the sweet, unpolluted land, Where clouds are like vapor, And pathways feel like quicksand. Let it consume you, Let the dry land take your feet, Run until it feels like walking, Walk until your legs give in Cry until the rain fills the oceans with blue, As the waterless land floods to the brim, Scream until it becomes a language, Where silence is found only within. Sing a soft scream, As you drown in the flooded seas, Where no one can hear, Though everyone could see.

August 12, 2022 9:35AM Title: Childhood Candy I'm on pause, Smoke's going in, out of my lungs, The sky above my head, Blue and Grey in the shape of clouds. If this is the gift they claimed to be good, There's nothing else I could ever ask for. Unwrapping things like a child, Clinging onto your shoulders. The taste of sweetness, The cinnamon on your tongue, Licking and sipping like a lollipop, You're the childhood candy that I lost.

October 31, 2023 4:48PM Title: Silver Glitter When all hope is lost, And all you wish, is to pull the trigger, May your next life be well, Full of gold and silver glitter.

June 2, 2023 10:59PM Title: Superficial Faces My eyes familiarize, A starting line that never left, My feet running in its course, Yet no matter the steps, I can’t let go. Maybe in another world, A secondary time and space, I’m okay. Holding on to these superficial faces, Crossing finish lines in the outer haze.

August 24, 2025 1:11AM Title: Ely My heart is made of stone And my eyes are full of glass You came into my life And turned my hard soul into ash For you, I’d fly the heavens Even if my feet only knew the earth I’d reach the stars and lift the mountains To see your small teeth, And hear your words Before, my world was black and white Yet in your eyes lay a kaleidoscope That I’d rather watch than my favorite show My blurry eyes, turning into telescopes If I could, I’d carry your pain on my shoulders And lift your heart to lessen the hurt I’d make a place with just you and me A bubble without other worlds And we’ll make a small house by the sea Where it’s just the two of us; You and me

February 1, 2023 8:55PM Title: Indoor Balcony I once found myself wandering, Through every mountain of distress, Flew crowded skies like no other, And swam oceans full of regret. Looked through telescopes in the night, Though I had nothing to see, Walked on sealess beaches, Feet buried in low-tide memories. Ink fills my lungs, releasing as air, Piled in a clouded haze of a drunk bigotry, Eyes looking down from an indoor balcony, Legs tempting an adventure with the god underneath. Taunting fate in the hands of a stranger, Playing solitaire with a deck of tarot cards, Heaven is a jackpot in a lottery, A folded poker game with zero odds.

October 20, 2022 1:01AM Title: End of the World If the world ever ends, And I’m part of its timeline, I’d pick up a pen and paper, And write how gaining everything, Was worth losing it, Just to experience, What it’s like to touch, And feel the things I had. I know that my words, Won’t have much of an effect, In a world that’s ending, Where material things, Don’t have worth. But every thought that is solidified, Every paragraph that once did not exist, Creating what was not supposed to be, Is worth every end of existence to make, As there is a lot of value, To have something, That isn’t meant to be there anymore; Since that’s what art is. The less meaning it has, The more it’s appreciated.

October 19, 2022 10:04AM Title: Absence When all that I am, Washes under the rain, I pray you count the drops, Drench yourself in waterless seas, Use your tears to build a river, And try to make a reflection of me.

October 28, 2018 10:48PM Title: Made-Up Cliches I wish you knew How much you've killed me Without a knife. That every beat like a drum, Didn't even mean a thing to you, How you couldn't even, Make up a lie. You stabbed my heart Into made-up cliches With each of your mouth's "Goodbye." And bathed in my blood Without permission Then held every piece again To combine.

 November 3, 2018 12:32AM Title: Twelve: Suicidal She went up a hill, And counted every step. "One, two, three," And lost count 'til ten. Yet there she went, And on the tip, she stood. Her voice told her deepest regrets, And all the fears she tried to lose. Wonderful, it is. Then she untied her shoes, Counted ten to eleven; Jumped.

November 30, 2018 8:50PM Title: Nightingale I hope to be your nightingale, Where your ears desire my voice. That I can help you ease, From the world and all its noise. I hope to be the stars, That lives just for the shine. In every darkness you're in, All you'll see is light. I hope to be your heart, How I'm the reason why it beats So you'll remember what I sound In all the "I love you's" I speak.

November 29, 2018 9:24AM Title: Phonebooth I pretend to forget, The days of our youth, When we talked 'til seven, And slept by noon. How each penny I had, Now in a phone booth, Each held my regret, And the feelings I tried not to lose. All because I can never, Accept the truth. Accept the thought, Of losing you.

November 20, 2018 Unknown Time Title: Sad Person's Dread Give me something, That's worthy to be read. So others can feel the piece, Of a sad person's dread. Let your tears be my ink, And your tales as my pen. The words as your voice, The pages; experience.

November 17, 2018 7:50PM Title: Tell Me, Tell You Tell me a feeling, That I'll never forget. Tell me words, Even if they're not what you meant. Tell me you love me, Even if you don't I'll tell you I do, And give myself hope.

 November 17, 2018  7:07PM Title: Dad Bid me goodbye, But leave the door open. It tells me why you left, Without a word spoken.

November 15, 2018  10:05PM Title: Typewriter Her mind held a typewriter, She always knew what to say. Give her names or some words And all she'll create.