Iris

June 28, 2025 8:34 AM Title: Regrets I long for words unspoken— for missed chances, rascal years, and everything lost to the quiet of forgetting; People shaped my tears. May everyone find, What they’ve always wanted, Not what they deserve. Because through the years, I’ve drifted far from heaven— Grown independent of God, Entwined instead with fear. You may not understand me. People rarely do. But know this; I will always wish you the best, Even as the tides rush into the oceans, And ink stains the last of my truth.

March 11, 2023 1 2:38AM Title: Bannister Embrace I dread the fear of longing, When my eyes would search, For the sun in the night sky, Where all the answers would be, In the lifetime of “why’s” I’d find. My head is clouded in purple hues, Filled with a bannister embrace, The lifeline I once created, Was caught in an eyeless gaze; Nothing is once as was it was made. “Be kind,” I say to myself at night, Cleansing the mistakes that stay, Somewhere in the past or in between, Riding in the fire of our candle days; Absent in the empty schemes, my daze. Hiding my words in metaphors, In a language that no one understands, Literal is a meaningless concept, Lost is a form of dance; Where I lost my only chance I love in the face of evil, I hurt in the place of kind, I stand as an anarchic society, “My love, my love” I call out , But my love, nobody understands.

June 6, 2024 11:16AM Title: July Meet me in July, By the summers and springs, Where the tide rises, And the cold water sings. Touch my hands in the days of December, And let go by noon, Singing sad songs in November, Dancing on my tears by the end of June.

May 6, 2024 3:40AM Title: Illness I wake from my open slumber, With pillows thrown across the room, A reminder of my sheltered demons, All the pills I never took. The permanent solution, For my temporary problems, Immaturity is a never-ending weakness. No therapist can ever cure.

October 31, 2023 4:40PM Absent God  —  Part 2 I lay awake at night, With all the sad songs in the world. Trying to decipher the memories, The answers to why things occurred. Is it me that needed fixing? With my audacity to demand good, For my inner child that’s hurting, Who was abandoned by the world My head seeks justice, But my heart’s already tired, Of singing sad songs pointing to heaven, Asking help from a God — Who’s always never there

February 22, 2023 7:12PM Title: Absent God Night coffee on my tongue, Sunset horizons taking place. Yellow, red, blue, and purple, An absent god staring at my face. 15 billion stars in my eyes, Yet I live only in the lands of the earth, With feet never daring to touch the sky, Head in the clouds formed as blue birds Melatonin daydreams, Scattered in my waking head, Holding down the distance in between, When will this ever end? But I dance with the lights of heaven, Where I have travelled, With the oranges I found at dawn, My mouth speaks freedom, —Never meeting the gaze of the sun.